Tuesday, September 17, 2013

What speaks to your soul?

While I was moved to share with you the secret of Br. B.F. Martin's generosity, I am moved to share with you another act of kindness. This act was also a secret. Not because I was instructed to do so but because it was experienced only by me and the donor (whose name I don't know).  While I spoke of it privately to friends and family, it was an experience that moves me to tears every time I tell it.

It was the opening day of the Hurricane Relief Center. We had circulated fliers to all the churches requesting donated items for our Monday morning opening.  The first person to walk into the Relief Center that Monday morning was an elderly black man. He was carrying three hangers with clean and meticulously pressed jeans. Used jeans. I approached him and asked him how I could help.  He handed me the jeans on the hangers and then went on to explain how he had stayed up all night washing and pressing them. "They're old jeans," He said. "But they're clean. I figured someone could use them. These folks got nothing."

I took the jeans on the hangers from him. While he also apologized for not having anything else to give. He said that he only had four pair of jeans to his name.  Three of which hung starched and ironed on the hangers. The forth pair he was wearing.

I could hardly speak. Tears were rolling down my cheek as I accepted his sweet offer.

There were many acts of kindness to follow including that of Br. Martin, but it was this single act of generosity that spoke to my soul. While I figure that the old gentleman was limited in his means, he was certainly not limited in his selflessness.

It was this gesture of love at the beginning of our efforts that shaped the way we would close the relief center at the end. Once the holidays were over and we went about our business closing the relief center down. We opened the doors to area churches, smaller relief efforts and we even shipped clothes to Texas. We still had racks and racks of clothes.  We called around to see what other relief efforts were doing with the mounds of clothes they had left over. Many told us they just carried them to the dump.

I remembered the jeans. I remembered the little black man who stayed up all night and pressed those jeans. I remembered his sweet face as he apologized because he had nothing else worth giving, so he thought.   I felt the love. And I felt that it would be disrespectful and unchristian to throw any piece of clothing away.

So, we made the decision to keep the clothes. Not for ourselves. But to use as future quilts. The Quilting Queens, made up of Relief Center volunteers, was formed.  And the clothes were rendered into scraps and quilt after quilt were crafted by these sweet amazing women. Many of whom had never quilted before.

The love shown during this tragic time in our State's history was sewn into every quilt and either donated or raffled to raise more money for the continued relief efforts.

Three pair of used jeans and $30,000 in cash were the smallest and largest contribution to the Relief Center. Both were equally astounding. And both spoke to my soul?






Sunday, September 15, 2013

I'm not good at keeping secrets.

Perception is a funny thing. For some people it is 'their truth.' And I guess that's where we all fall into the trap of making assumptions based on our perceptions. I would like to share a truth with you all now.  This is not about me but about someone who swore me to secrecy. And I kept his secret until his death a little over a year ago.

The story starts like this. Following Hurricane Katrina, Jenny Reynolds and I opened the Hurricane Relief Center in the old WalMart building in Minden.  As overseers of the donations, we knew first hand who was contributing to the relief center. Many donors did not request to remain anonymous and not that we required it or that it made their generosity any less appreciative. But I found it strange that most people thought that the majority of the donations, the sizable ones anyway, 'came from the well-to-do white folks in town.' And some people were pretty vocal about it, too. 

We operated the relief center for three months. Right up to Christmas. While we were fortunate to have received some donations from a very generous community, the evacuees still had to pick from what was there. And sometimes it didn't mean that we had something for everyone. 

Just a few weeks before Christmas, a gentleman walked into the Relief Center and asked if we could come out to the car.  I went to see what was up. There was another man sitting in the back seat of the car with the door open. He had one leg out and turned around as if to get out but remained seated. I approached the car and saw who it was. I shook his hand and he asked me if I had time to talk to him for a minute. 

He told me he knew that Jenny and I had kept up with the evacuees that remained in town. He asked what that number was. I told him that we knew of 30 families that were still in Minden following Katrina.  With his checkbook in hand, he began to write. And while he was writing he told me that he appreciated everything we were doing for the evacuees. He went on to say 'but  they deserved to be able to go the store and buy their family presents.'  He said he appreciated what we were doing here but that it just wasn't the same as being able to go out and buy it for yourself.  He asked if we could process his check and see to it that each family receive his kind donation. 

As he finished writing his check. He tore it out of his checkbook and handed it me with one condition he said." You can't tell anyone where this came from. No one is to know that I did this. Not the evacuees. Not the public. Not anyone. Do you understand? "   "Yes, sir," I said. He folded the check in two,handed it to me and said "God Bless You." He sat back in his seat, shut the door and drove away. 

The man was Rev. B. F. Martin and the check was for $30,000. We saw to it that each family received a $1,000 check to spend as they saw fit. We never told them who the donor was.

 Rev. B.F. Martin was Santa Claus for them that year. And he was our hero.  He had made the single largest contribution ever to our relief effort. And we kept it a secret. Until today! 

I'm not good at keeping secrets. And this one was meant to be shared. 


Sunday, September 8, 2013

Ashes to ashes.

Comedian Billy Crystal has written a book. He was on Sunday Morning this morning talking about the one thing that most people don't talk about but should.  And something many of us think about when we reach our sixties.......and that is death.

He wrote about a subject that Rick and I actually do talk about.  And that is, who will go first? We joke about it.  How else can you talk about it without sinking into an abyss of sadness?   Rick says I should go first because I am oblivious to most things and life would be too hard for me. He seems to think that I wouldn't be able to know how to get out of the house, should he go first. He does work hard to keep everything around us in working order. So, he might be right on that one.

We have also discussed how we want to be buried...or not.   And we joke about that, too...for all the same reasons as mentioned.  We have both agreed that we want our deaths  to be easy on our loved ones. We don't want a big fancy funeral or a big fancy coffin. We don't even want to be buried. We have both opted for cremation. It's easy. It's inexpensive and we won't be taking up precious land for a burial plot and a tombstone that someone is going to be expected to keep up.

I want my ashes to be spread among the wildflowers or made into some kind of neat stone that someone might pick up one day and take home...like the many unusual stones I've picked up and taken home over the years. Rick wants his ashes put in a mayonnaise jar and carried up to our cabin in the Ozarks and tossed over one of the many cliffs we've hiked.  Rick jokingly tells me, he'll put my ashes in Toby's liter box. (Toby is one of our cats that  obviously prefers Rick over me.)  I guess in truth, we would both want to be tossed off a cliff or sprinkled over the creeks we have found so much pleasure in walking all these many years.

The truth is that everyone at some point should have this conversation. It's not like it's not going to happen.And if you can get past the sadness associated with it, it does feel good to know that someone knows what to do with you after you're gone even if they question what to do with you when you're here.

All kidding aside, what we do want is for our family and friends to celebrate our life with stories and memories that we all shared. We want laughter and love. We want tears of joy, not tears of sorrow.

And have a beer on us! Well, beer for me.  A glass of iced tea for Rick. Everyone knows I turned out to be the lush in the family. So, maybe it's true that I wouldn't be able to find my way out of the house.









Friday, September 6, 2013

Pick your fights. Pursue your passions.

Fumbling through life can be a real challenge at times. And I say 'fumbling' because that's what it felt like to me. While I feel pretty secure in my choices now. I can't say that I always knew what I would do with my life or what career path I would take.

But two philosophies that I have tried to adhere to was to pick my fights and pursue my passions. With so many issues and causes in the world, it's unrealistic to think you can crusade for all of them. Social issues have always found me and while I try hard to stay focused, it's easy to get distracted with other causes that you think you might be able to 'make a difference.'  I know I can't save the world but there are parts of it that I would certainly like to change. And I guess that's been the thing that has driven me to volunteer and spend so much time on projects and programs.that I believe put people in a better state of mind....or maybe it just puts me in a better state of mind.

Being in love with the arts and finding great satisfaction in being creative was an easy fit for me.  Finding a career that fit was not as easy. It wasn't until I found myself challenged to develop a creative atmosphere for my son  that I discovered skills I didn't know I had.  

Staying on track and keeping focused hasn't always been easy. My drive and my desire to keep moving has resulted in my running over a few people on occasion. I've often told people, especially when I'm 'on a mission,' that they can either help me or get out of my way. I guess some didn't get out of the way quick enough for me. I regret those casualties but they can't say they weren't warned.

Today my fight and my passion are one in the same. I am fighting  for a better public understanding of the value of the arts. I truly believe that creativity is a gift from our creator and  it's there for everyone to enjoy and experience. You just need to open the package.